I’ve always had a problem with finishing things – books, relationships (!) and now writing. Particularly writing. I have a whole mass of unfinished short stories, flash fiction and now even a novel thrown into the mix, and when I say ‘unfinished,’ I mean written, but not edited to a suitable standard, a saleable standard, I guess.
I really want to understand the mentality that lies behind not completing something you’ve set out to do. In my case I would say it’s down to self-belief, as the things I truly believed I could do, I persevered with – piano playing, becoming fluent in Japanese and running two marathons.
Writing, however, is a different thing altogether. With the activities mentioned above, there is constant proof you’re improving (passing exams, being able to communicate well and completing races), but with writing, when you’re not winning or getting shortlisted in competitions, you only have your self-belief to tell you that you’re on the right track. Of course you can always depend on your nearest and dearest to tell you how talented you are (my mum is my biggest fan), but they’re probably slightly biased! With a creative pursuit such as writing, you have to dig deep and ignore the little voices that tell you can’t do it. In my case, it’s getting easier. The more I do it, the more I feel I’m able to do it, so I’ve now reached the stage where it’s easier and more enjoyable to do it than not and that’s a great feeling.
I’m now in the process of revisiting my stories and editing them to the standard where I feel they have a realistic chance of publication, whereas in the past I would have just given up on them and started something new. This not only a sign that my self belief is increasing but also that I’m starting to take my writing more seriously.
I was exactly the same with my writing! Sharing it on my blog helped immensely! Strangers liked my work! It gave me the courage to publish my own book. I would love to read some of your short stories! I share mine, you share yours. ):D)
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Congratulations on your book, that’s amazing! Yes, you’re right re sharing, but I think sharing with the right people is essential. I post some of my stuff in an online writers circle – that’s helped enormously. I’d love to swap stories. Maybe we could do it via email? (What’s your name btw?!)
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hhahah I’m Pamela and if you wish to speak to me directly: quiall@cogeco.ca. Nice to meet you.
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I’ll email you later, Pamela. Nice to ‘meet’ you! (My email is mrythompson4@aol.com) Mary
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I’ve found other people are good at finishing relationships for me, but only I can wrap up my written works. Like you, I have completed stories and novels floating around in literature purgatory. They reside there through a combination of self-doubt, and an acknowledgement that some are quite old now. I believe I’ve evolved as a writer and not sure I want them to be the first product of my ability that the world sees. So new writing gets produced that eventually feels dated and the cycle repeats.
I guess we just have to take the plunge and get it out there.
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Yes, Christopher, absolutely! I feel as if I’m evolving but it’s a mighty slow process.. Btw, I’ve seen your articles. Are you a sports journalist?
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I’m not a fully-fledged sports journalist. I placed an essay on Amazon about football finance many moons ago, just to see how the Kindle system worked, and accidentally fell into sports articles. I then completed a football journalist internship but have tried to steer back to creative waters. I just use my site as a tool to keep my eye in but haven’t ruled out writing elsewhere again as a sports journalist.
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Mary, it sounds as though you are really growing as a writer. I would enjoy sharing stories with you as you see fit–on this blog or via e-mail. markanderson9@mac.com 🙂
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That’d be great, Mark. I’d prefer to do so via email. Mine is mrythompson4@aol.com. I’ll get in touch later. Have a good day! It’s morning here and cold…
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