‘Obstacles’– #AtoZ Challenge

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Today I woke up feeling very different to how I felt at the weekend. Saturday was a fabulous day writing-wise. I did a short story for an online flash fiction course, my regular blog post and a weekly flash competition and I went to bed really feeling like a writer! Today, however I have self-doubt. I’m not working for the next month so have planned to devote much of that time to writing yet I’m doubting whether I have what it takes to succeed, even though this year has been relatively successful for me so far.

My main obstacle has always been self-doubt. It’s plagued me in several areas of my life, but no more so than in writing. Writing is difficult – it’s demanding, competitive and it requires a huge amount of hard work, often for little or no reward, so it’s something you have to want to do very very badly in order to have any chance of success. It makes you wonder why anyone even bothers to try! And yet I know that it’s what makes me happy, what makes me tick. Being shortlisted or even long listed in a competition probably gives me more satisfaction than any other thing in life, and completing a good flash fiction piece or short story is such a wonderful feeling. At times like this, my self-doubt disappears and I feel a sense of connection with the world, a feeling that I’m doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing with my life, and remembering this feeling this morning will go some way towards eliminating the doubt.

Another obstacle is procrastination, although I’m managing it better now. I think as writers, we sometimes wait for the best time to write a story, instead of just putting pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) and getting it down. The worst thing about procrastination is that in the act of putting something off, you end up focusing on it even more to the extent that it preoccupies you, so obviously it makes sense to simply get on with the task in hand. I’ve noticed recently, now that I’m procrastinating less, that I’m much more prolific. I can think of ideas more quickly and once I’ve got a story out, I move onto the next one immediately. This approach will (I hope) eventually result in success!

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8 thoughts on “‘Obstacles’– #AtoZ Challenge

  1. “And yet I know that it’s what makes me happy, what makes me tick.” – You couldn’t have said it better. I’m also trying to get rid of the habit to wait for the “perfect” time because there’s rarely such. Wonderful post again. 🙂 Keeping my fingers crossed for you and your plans for next month!

    Rian from
    Rian’s Randomness

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  2. Mary, all I can tell you is that you should rid yourself of all of that self-doubt (easier said than done, I know) but, believe it or not, you are a very good and talented writer! I look forward to reading your novel–as it progresses or in its draft form–and all of your wonderful posts here in the blog world. I’m very familiar with the lively art of procrastination. I, too, have a novel that has been kicking about–in need of editing and rewriting–for a couple of years now, and I must get to it. So, in short, you’re not alone here!!! Enjoy the adventure. 🙂

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